alright.. i dunno whose mojo i stole.. but i'll be damned if i'm giving it back! Been really down lately. .since all that emo drama shit that happened to me over the summer. . friend shoots himself in the head while talking to me on the phone. . . his parents sue me for wrongful death, case thrown out, i get raped. . >.< still stalked by the motherfucker. . blah. . and a whole bunch of other shit that follows in the process like some morbid shampoo bottle reading rinse lather repeat. lol. But then Donovan and I started dating. and things started to look up. . i stopped having flash backs of the. . umm. . "R" word. . i was feeling lighter on my feet. . and i think i'm starting to heal. . and now. . tonight. . i finally moved up on the DDR scale. . w00t finally made it to heavy! hell yes. . . now. . i don have to look stupid when i'm dancing next to Donovan and he's on heavy where as i'm only on standard. . . look out Matt and Donovan. . and Alex cause I'm working on beating all of you :grin: but yesh. . The Moki Mojo is back. . and all is right again. . i've returned to being every one's favorite magic eight ball . .and the signs are no longer hazy. . so go ahead. . throw your best at me. . cause right now i'm like percocet and alcohol. . bullet proof. .. :face:

Amp

10 Bands/artists you've been listening a lot to lately:
1.flogging molly
2.malice mizer
3. DJ Ghost child
4. jack Off Jill
5. Tsunami Bomb
6. the police
7. Mini MOni
8. The cranberries
9. metallica
10. Lacuna Coil

10 Things you look forward to:
1. seeing Donovan every day (lol girly i know ^_^)
2. going back home, Hilo
3. DDR
4. roadtrip
5. going to Japan
6. remembering how to surf once i have waves
7. healing this open emo wound >.<
8. fnishing my comic book
9. passing high school
10. getting into college

9 Things you like to wear:
1. Neon
2. baggy pants
3. tank tops
4. leg warmers
5. jeans
6. heart necklace (given to me by Donovan)
7. plaid skirts in all colors mostly yellow
8. my boxers i stold from fuzzy ^_^
9. hello kitty cheekie panties

7 Things that anger you:
1. when people hurt some one i love
2. see #1
3. see #1
5. see #1
6. see #1
7.see #1


6 Things you say most days:
1. are you okay
2. im horny
3. i may kill him
4. i love you
5. i'm fine stop asking
6. stop it. .i'm not hungry

7 Things you do everyday:
1. talk to my bf
2. listen to music
3. draw
4. eat
5. dance
6. sing
7. love

4 People you want to spend more time with:
1. Donovan
2. see #1
3.see #1
4. see #1
5. see #1

3 Movies you could watch over and over again:
1. hmmm. . . Jaws
2.
3.
4.
5.

2 Of your favorite songs at the moment:
1. Matrix 2 trance mix
2. inner universe

1 person you could spend the rest of your life with:
1. Donovan ^_^

NUMBER OF:
- height:5'3
- shoe size: 8
- hair color: brunette to white


LAST:
- movie you rented: the village
- movie you bought: stepford wives
- song you listened to: matrix 2 trance remix
- song that was stuck in your head: matrix 2
- person you've called: no one. .don't like the phone
- person that's called you: no one. .
- show you've watched: MXC
- person you were thinking of: Donovan ^_^

DO:
- you have a crush on someone: yes
- you wish you could live somewhere else: sometimes
- you believe in online dating: . . .
- others find you attractive: i've no idea why
- you want more piercings: sure.. if i didn't keep bleeding >.<
- you like cleaning: sometimes
-you write in cursive or print: print

FAVORITE:
- food: asian and hawaiian
- thing to do: all that happy relationship stuff, and drawing
- thing to talk about: music,movies,cultured stuff and hot sex
- drinks: mountain dew, orange soda
- clothes: big baggy boy pants and tight tank tops (big boobies)
- movies: scary stuffies, and the occasional cartoon
- holiday: . . .

HAVE YOU:
- ever cried over a girl: yeah a close friend
- ever cried over a boy: . . .
- ever been in a fist fight: several
- ever been arrested: no comment

WHAT
- shampoo do you use: what ever's cheapest
- are you scared of: . . adrian
- number of people I would classify as true, could trust with my life type friends: 4
- number of people I consider my enemies: 1

FAVORITE:
- disney movie: hmmm. . dunno
- word: fuck it goes with everything
- nickname: moki
- eye color: dunno
- flower: i like em all. . .

DO YOU THINK YOU ARE:
- pretty: in a way
- funny: sometimes
- hot: gots curves
- friendly: very
- amusing: apparently very
- ugly: a little
- loveable: i guess i am ^_^
- sweet: been described as that
- dorky: forever

DESCRIBE YOUR:
[ x ] Wallet- i have a wallet?
[ x ] Jewelry worn daily –class ring and heart necklace
[ x ] Pillow cover – gold satin
[ x ] Underwear –cheeky panties
[ x ] Favorite shirt – . . .
[ x ] Perfume/cologne – plumeria
[ x ] CD in stereo right now- DDR music
[ x ] What you are wearing now –cheeky panties and a tank top
[ x ] In my mouth – spit
[ x ] In my head – lots of hair
[ x ] Wishing – i could be with Donovan
[ x ] After this – bed time
[ x ] Person you wish you could see right now – Donovan
[ x ] Something you're looking forward to in the upcoming month – . . .
[ x ] Do you like the taste of blood – kinda like a penny but yeah
[ x ] Do you believe in love – deeply
[ x ] Do you believe in Heaven – yes
[ x ] What do you want done with your body when you die: ummm. . .
[ x ] If you could have any animal for a pet, what would it be – . . . . my cat
[ x ] What's your favorite coin – quarter

01. Who are you, what's our relationship:
02. How and where did we meet:
03. What's my middle name:
04. How long have you known me:
05. Tell me one good thing about myself:
06. When you first saw me what was your impression:
07. My age:
08. Birthday:
09. My favorite band at the moment:
10. My color eyes:
11. Do I have any siblings:
12. Have you ever had a crush on me:
13. What's one of my favorite things to do:
14. Do you remember one of the 1st things I said to you:
15. Describe me in 3 words:
16. Name 5 things I love:
17. Do you think I'm good looking:
18. How would you describe me to someone:
19. Would you ever date me:
20. Tell me one thing you've always wanted to say but never did:
21: What do you like most about me:
22: If we could spend a day together what would we do:
23: Have we ever gotten in a fight:
24: Do you think we will be friends for at least 3 or 4 more years:
25. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it:
26. What do you think my weakness is?
27. Do you think I'll get married?
28. What makes me happy?
29. What makes me sad?
30. What reminds you of me?
31. If you could give me anything what would it be?
32. When's the last time you saw me?
33. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?
34. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
35. Are you going to put this on your journal and see what I say about you?
36. If I was an ice cream flavor, which would I be and why?
37. What song (if any) reminds you of me?
38. If you could change one thing about me, what would it be?
39. Would you make a move on me?
40. Do I cross your mind at least 1 time a day?

hopefully this will be the last depressing journal i post. . and I'll post it before the new year begins so i can start with a clean slate. . . lately i've been hearing and reading things. . about me. . . that make me feel as if some where along the way i fucked up. . . . or was misunderstood. . some people feel as though i'm "decieving them" others think i'm just a depressing waste of time . . . . and some people would just rather be done with me all together. . . i dunno how., . . or why all this started. . .wait. . yeah i do. . . every one's perfect little vision of how Trancey oughta be was dashed to pieces this year . . . they discovered that maybe trancey can't be happy all the time. . and unfortunately. . . this year i let me feelings get out of check way too often. . . so this could be my fault. . . but knowing the people i do. . i got to feeling like i could really trust some of them. . . i warned them from the start that my life was like some poorly written story. . the kind where you shake your head and sigh because you couldn't possibly think these things could really happen. . . . but they do . . . oh well. . . but any way . . back on subject. . . .

this year i grew close to a lot of people. . . my best friend mostly. . . and i know they would never ever say anything to hurt my intentionally. . . and hey. . who knows. . more than likely i'm reading too much into it again. . . how ever. . some things that are said when we talk make me feel as though maybe they doubt just how sincere i am. . . so let me clear things up. . . everything and anything i told you this year. . is true. .. . much of what i told you was way to serious for it to have been a joke. . i hope only that you can believe me. . and eventually tell me what ever it was that made you doubt me. .

on another subject. . i've had some things said to me that make me feel as though maybe i was misunderstood. . or just unaware of the things i had done. . either way. . . I'm tired. . . this summer may have tested all my friendships. . but i think it was just a taste of what my every day life it like. . and i don't complain. . knowing people trust me and will talk to me anytime they need some one to listens is one of my only reasons for living. .. . which is why i have a hard time understanding why some are so frustrated with me . . . i'm human too . . . and yes . every one has had some rough shit happen in their lives. . . i have too. . . and i've hidden it from every one. . . this year happened to be worse than most. . . but all i can say is that for those who stuck by me the entire summer. . . despite all the drama. . know that I'm always here. . even when i seemed detatched from most. . (mush moment) and on a final thought. . . . just so every one knows. . . my feelings for certain people are in no way any one elses business. . those of you who disagree. . as far as I'm concerned can go to hell. . . . and on the final thought. . . . happy new years.

Amp

Whoo hoo. . . . i finally found a house with two yards and trees and grass. . and before you all start thinking i'm out of my mind. . all the houses i've ever lived in. . which weren't really houses. . just expensinve grounded apartments with sandboxes for yards, have never had yards. . . much less trees. . so the grass would fry and i'd get this , "i live in texas" look to me front yard. but this place has lots of trees and they're pretty. . and and and . . Elephant plants. and palms. . and GRASS! OMG I've never had grass in my yard before! When i did live in a house with a yard with the ability to grow grass, Sonny covered it up with gravel but now. . this new house has grass. . and a BIG front yard. . and it actually looks like a house. . . . dot dot dot. . wow. . i do sound like i'm on crack. . . hmm. . . . oh well. . i'm excited about moving ^_^. . some where around the first ^_^. . yeah. . . . . and then. . oh well. . . you all get the picture. . .after christmas i'll be posting from a new location. ^_^ . . whoo hooo ^_^

Amp